The Long Staircase

Of course it had to happen, it wouldn't be fair to round out the year without you
that's just the way the universe works

I had an inkling you'd show up, to the place where we first met
where we first learned about each other
but that wasn't the end

But now I wish it had been
I wish all our conversations
all of the cheering up
the joking
the sadness
the way we understood each other when no one else did
didn't happen

So that way when you left
it wouldn't have destroyed me
it wouldn't have ripped out my heart
it wouldn't have hurt this much when I saw you again
I would still be whole